{"id":47,"date":"2024-06-20T03:51:35","date_gmt":"2024-06-20T00:51:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/neonbulut.com\/?p=47"},"modified":"2025-11-28T06:30:43","modified_gmt":"2025-11-28T03:30:43","slug":"uzaklasmak","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/neonbulut.com\/?p=47","title":{"rendered":"Uzakla\u015fmak"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Sana feda edilmi\u015f saniyelere\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Hala k\u00f6lesi oldu\u011fum baz\u0131 anlar\u0131n \u00fcstesinden gelebiliyorum sanki sabahlar\u0131 g\u00fcne\u015f yeni do\u011fdu\u011funda. D\u00fcnyay\u0131 ad\u0131m ad\u0131m d\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde yine ayn\u0131 yerde oluyorum binlerce kilometre y\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f olmama ra\u011fmen. Sadece denizin kenar\u0131nda oturdu\u011fum, elimdeki bir kutuda sonsuzlu\u011fun i\u00e7inde kayboldu\u011fum saatlerde \u00e7ok uzakta hissediyorum. E\u011fer g\u00fcnlerse uzakla\u015ft\u0131ran insanlar\u0131 hala bolca ge\u00e7mesi gerek. \u00c7ok zaman ge\u00e7emeden d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler donarsa uzakla\u015fmak imkans\u0131z. Kaskat\u0131 kesilmi\u015f bir kafatas\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inde y\u00fczmek zor olmal\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Benim neyse ki kayboldu\u011fum yerler var. Kaybolmak yanl\u0131\u015f oldu, kay\u0131p de\u011filim asl\u0131nda ama nerde oldu\u011fum beni ilgilendirmiyor.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBenim neyse ki nerde oldu\u011fum beni ilgilendirmiyor.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Tek derdim uyku sipari\u015f etti\u011fim gece yine dans pistinde olmak. \u0130\u015fte bu s\u0131radanla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor beni. Karanl\u0131k 3 dakikam olsa kendim olabilirdim. Bir dakikada anca bu kadar olabildim. Heyecan\u0131m\u0131 yitirdim. Art\u0131k bunu yapmak istemiyorum.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sana feda edilmi\u015f saniyelere\u2026 Hala k\u00f6lesi oldu\u011fum baz\u0131 anlar\u0131n \u00fcstesinden gelebiliyorum sanki sabahlar\u0131 g\u00fcne\u015f yeni do\u011fdu\u011funda. D\u00fcnyay\u0131 ad\u0131m ad\u0131m d\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde yine ayn\u0131 yerde oluyorum binlerce kilometre y\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f olmama ra\u011fmen. Sadece denizin kenar\u0131nda oturdu\u011fum, elimdeki bir kutuda sonsuzlu\u011fun i\u00e7inde kayboldu\u011fum saatlerde \u00e7ok uzakta hissediyorum. E\u011fer g\u00fcnlerse uzakla\u015ft\u0131ran insanlar\u0131 hala bolca ge\u00e7mesi gerek. \u00c7ok zaman ge\u00e7emeden d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler&hellip; <a class=\"more-link\" href=\"http:\/\/neonbulut.com\/?p=47\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Uzakla\u015fmak<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\" aria-hidden=\"true\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":148,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-47","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-genel"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_likes_enabled":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/neonbulut.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/neonbulut.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/neonbulut.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/neonbulut.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/neonbulut.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=47"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/neonbulut.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":236,"href":"http:\/\/neonbulut.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47\/revisions\/236"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/neonbulut.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=47"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/neonbulut.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=47"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/neonbulut.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=47"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}